Friday, February 26, 2016

Virus is more scary than Bacteria nowadays?

While we are struggling to deal with the resistant BACTERIA here, those deadly VIRUS are approaching us from behind.... HIV has killed billions of people; Ebola is just being announced clear last year; and now Zika, which we still don't have any cure or way to control it. Scientists are worried about the possibility of transmission among human. We haven't really handle the Bacteria well, and now are we ready for the Virus?

(Adapted from Bacteria vs. Viruses by Audrey Best)


Saturday, April 18, 2015

"Ezetimibe and Vytorin are just marketing tools, a way to evergreen the patent on Zocor." Ezetimibe might be nothing more than placebos??

Again, big pharmaceutical companies cause patients and prescribers to lose confidence on their drugs with unconvincing studies data....

The excerpt below taken from Forbes by Matthew Herper-


"..... Merck and Schering behaved terribly when developing ezetimibe: burying data, heavily marketing the drug with television ads, and paying some doctors to talk it up. From the start, the companies dragged their heels on starting a study to test whether or not adding ezetimibe to a statin prevented heart attacks and strokes. Such a study didn’t begin until 2005, a year after the drug was approved.

Critics saw the whole ezetimibe franchise – both Zetia and Vytorin – as a cheap trick to extend the life of Merck’s $7-billion-a-year Zocor, which would lose patent protection in 2006. The ezetimibe pills would have another decade of patent protection. When Vytorin, an ezetimibe-Zocor combination, was approved in 2005, Steven Nissen of the Cleveland called it “a step backward.” He added: “There is not enough evidence to justify putting millions of Americans on a statin-sparing medicine. Ezetimibe and Vytorin are just marketing tools, a way to evergreen the patent on Zocor.”

"...... I found Merck and Schering’s response to the controversy infuriating. As one top cardiologist after another advised that patients shouldn’t get ezetimibe unless they couldn’t take a higher dose of a statin because of muscle aches or other side effects, the companies just seemed to keep insisting their own data was meaningless. I remember Merck PR people pushing me hard to interview Antonio Gotto, the dean of Cornell-Weill Medical School, whose views on ezetimibe seemed far more positive than anyone else I spoke to. According to investigators for Senator Charles Grassley, Merck paid him $27,146 for lectures and consulting during that five-month period.

But once this negative narrative was set, there was a tendency for ezetimibe to look even worse than it was. It became the poster-drug for not gathering enough information about a medicine before marketing it. When more patients taking Vytorin got cancer than those taking placebo, it was easy to find critics who were worried about the connection. Scientists working with Merck misplayed their hand by trying to insist that there was absolutely no risk, creating a scary-sounding debate about whether the cancer link was unlikely or completely impossible."

"..... The questions this begs: should I think about taking ezetimibe myself? I eat broccoli and take the stairs. But my cholesterol has sometimes tended to be high– though I’ve lately kept my LDL around 100 with a combination of exercise and a healthy diet rich in nuts and olive oil. If I started taking Zetia now, lowering my cholesterol further, would it decrease my risk of a heart attack or stroke over decades? We don’t know but the prospect is tantalizing.

For years, many cardiologists have been arguing that we might be able to eliminate heart disease if we could get our cholesterol down to the levels seen in hunter-gatherers. Even very healthy diets do not do this. A daily ezetimibe might — but we don’t have the data to prove it would. What would doctors say to patients who suggested it?

“The FDA has not approved it for anything like what you’re suggesting,” says Braunwald. “But you know in medical practice you sometimes have to go by the best evidence that’s around. Just recognizing the fact that the FDA hasn’t approved it for these purposes, I would certainly strongly consider it.”

There’s a big counter-argument. The study of ezetimibe from last fall – the only real test of the drug that Merck deigned to do – was in heart patients, not healthy people. Nissen, the longtime Vytorin critic, proposed a different solution to me if I insisted on being a one-person cholesterol-drug experiment: take a half-dose of the well-proven statin Pravachol, which has a great safety record and has been much more thoroughly studied. Most likely I’ll do what I always do when there’s conflicting medical evidence and I’m in no immediate peril: nothing."

The hardest thing about medicine – and about writing about it – is admitting that we don’t know what we don’t know. At some point, doctors and patients have to assemble all the evidence they can, make their best guesses as to why to do, and take leaps of faith. All we can do is collect more data and make the leaps a bit smaller.

Friday, February 13, 2015

期待 · 频率 · 界限

事业、感情、家人一直都是人生的躯干。在三者之间,找不到平衡点是要不得的。烦恼多了,就没心情和干劲。一直不能满足,生活空虚,是因为在乎的事情太多。活得不开心,往往是因为想要的东西太多吧。无论什么样的感情,对人好都不应该盼望回报,可是还是会在意。给了很多、很多,所有的时间、关心、语句、诗、画、陪伴,感觉整个心都被掏空了。哪还有精神想别的?在社交上,有相同频率的人比较能好好相处,可是生活中的家人、同事、朋友、伴侣,都存在着各种频率的人吧。难道就不跟不同频率的人说话吗?唯一的方案还是找出彼此适合的相处方式吧。

老板对员工、父母对孩子、伴侣对伴侣,难免在相处上都会有一些事先设下的条规,任何一方都不可踏出界限。踏出界限的一方就不好受。例如:员工可以上班迟到一两分钟,可是不能无故不上班;孩子可以顽皮,可是不能弄坏父母心爱的家私;伴侣可以不必每时每刻交待,但不能完全不交待。这些都是一些不能跨过的界限,不然就要被处罚了。有了这些界限,难道相处就会没问题吗?还是有因为不上班而被开除的员工,被打的孩子……错在他们不遵守界限?

相同频率的人相处时自然不需要界限,因为了解彼此处理事情的方式。界限都是为了不同频率的人相处而存在的。不能遵守界限时,双方都不好受,因为达不到所期待的结果。老板期待员工好好工作;父母期待孩子乖巧懂事;伴侣期待对方关心爱护。当一方不了解另一方的期待时,就不能在相同的频率上沟通,相处就产生摩擦。这剪不断,理还乱的关系,总有个方法吧?

“待人退人步,爱人宽一寸”,说容易,做很难。我们自认很少可以那么伟大的无条件付出,总是希望对方也会为自己着想。可是任何一方都必须先让步,才有商量和思考的空间。最好的方法不就是两方坐下来好好的谈,问题的根源和适合彼此的解决方式,找个适合双方的频率继续往前走。

“生活时常和我们开着玩笑,你期待什么,什么就会离你越远;你执着谁,就会被谁伤害得最深。所以,做事不必太期待,坚持不必太执着;要学会放下,放下不切实际的期待,放下没有结果的执着。所以,凡事要看淡一些,看开一些,看透一些,什么都在失去,什么都留不住,唯有当下的快乐与幸福。” @励志帖

想要有好的结果,就要适度调适本身的期待,与对方商讨适合的相处频率,双方都遵守设下的界限,建立充满大爱的社会吧。

- Alor Setar, Kedah -

Sunday, November 23, 2014

彩排过的人生

27岁即将来到,逐渐觉得青春流逝得太快了。看过的场面多了,经历得多了,很多事情不得不事先彩排,以表现出更完美的结果,或众大欢喜的局面。所有的行动都需三思而后行,所有的言语都需经过深思熟虑才说出口……当生活上每件事都如计划中进行时,人生会变得越来越枯燥无趣。平淡的生活终究不是我所追求的。可是随着责任的增加,岁月的摧残,工作的繁忙,你不能不屈服于平淡带来的舒适和安定。当回过神来,时间已不再等人,我当初向往做的事情呢?过的生活呢?目前已没有多余的精力来进行。那些精力去了哪里?应付老板,应付工作,应付病人,应付家人的期望,应酬朋友,应付虚荣心……

看到邻家小孩嬉闹的笑声,初出茅庐的菜鸟直率的表达方式,顿时会心一笑,他们很天真~ 是青春啊! 这种真情流露,我多久没有经历了?这种不需要经过彩排的言语也一样可带来欢乐,不是吗?一直担心没有彩排会带来的困扰,踏入社会需要准备的面具也越来越多。心理的真情感受都被掩盖起来,只有在独自看电影、夜深人静时,才敢表达出来,这种人生是多么的可悲和无情。我的人生似乎一直在各种各样的期望下挣扎,害怕失败、害怕不成熟、害怕失去、害怕失望……一直在这种恶性循环下紧绷的生活着。久而久之,养成了眷恋夜晚宁静的习惯,那几个小时让自己真情流露的宝贵时间,是让自己反省和净滤身心的短暂时刻。因此,夜晚变得多愁善感、纵泪横流、感触良多的 emo time。隔天踏入医院,又是笑着脸、点着头,尽力做好工作的 mode 了。

领悟了这一点,多交年轻人做朋友,何尝不是件好事?少了扮成熟、扮认真的面具,还多了做自己的轻松。有朋友问过我,“参那班年轻人能学到东西吗?你不是永远吃亏的那个吗?他们只会从你这儿得到好处。” 什么时候连交朋友也要彩排啊?也要计划从他身上可以得到什么好处吗?那你的朋友不是都交大叔大婶吧?我学到怎么活的年轻啊,学到做人不要这么现实啊,学到很多时候不必顾虑人家无谓的眼光啊,学到真情可以随时流露啊,学会珍惜青春啊!20多岁不活泼点,要等50岁吗?生活可以不必活得那么累啊!30岁就要学退休,学做个富太太,学做个老板,学做个上流人,那你这还叫 life 吗?我倒是喜欢充满欢笑声和天真地人生,不断尝试新鲜的东西,偶尔撒个娇、偷个懒,像个小孩般开心的活着。

那是理想的人生。我们目前的人生都充满诱惑:赚大钱、达到事业巅峰,似乎才是被认同的成功人生。我两种人生都想要,可以吗?这样会活得更累、更 bipolar 吧。写到这,人家会说其实你也是因为没有能力过那种上流生活,才推崇这种不成熟的人生吧。那决定权还是看个人。我不想一直活在别人的眼光和期望下,才决定作出这样的选择。找个好事业、找个好男人不是想象中容易啊。不如把人生简单化,事业有多成功不重要,重要是可以帮助别人过得更好、更开心;朋友有没有带给你利益不重要,重要是你能不能帮得到他们,把欢乐带给他们;有没有好男人不重要,重要是有一个能互相真诚对待的伴侣,彼此在一起会过得更开心。

最后,还是要提倡一个人生道理,“助人为快乐之本”。秉持着这个道理,你的人生有没有彩排过,或许都不再重要,因为结果会是开心和无怨无悔的。

Thursday, July 3, 2014

Thursday, February 13, 2014

来认识射手内心的真诚吧!

射手座的人总是固执地认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力,
她将自己想得太坚强,而把别人想得太脆弱。
她老是担心自己的行为会让别人受到伤害。
她不知道,受伤的其实是自己。只是她不知道如何表现出来,
她迷糊得像别人所认为的那样,将自己当成一个百毒不侵的人
常常听到别人说射手很花心,其实射手骨子里是一个对感情极其认真的人,
他们可以爱一个人很久很久,即便是身边常常围绕着许多的异性朋友。
当然最重要的是,和射手座的人在一起很舒服,
因为他们不会强迫你去做某件不情愿做的事情,也常常把顺其自然当作人生的信条。

射手座看起来那么大剌剌的,很难想象是个聪明的人,
其实射手座很两极化,有时很聪明,有时却又像个250傻不隆咚的,
其实这都要看情况,他高兴就跟你好,不开心懒也懒的理人
最让人爱的地方和最让人担心的地方就是天真。虽然具有哲思,
可太过善良和轻易相信别人的性格很容易被人宰割。
认为,世界就是自己看到的那样。黑就是黑,白就是白。想法太直接。
射手是傻人有傻福,无知者无畏,大步的前行,福很容易到。
所以射手必须有人保护或历经沧桑才能立足。
说射手座花心真的很不公平,
说射手喜欢玩感情游戏更是大错特错,
说射手分不清楚友情和爱情简直荒谬。
在他们内心正爱只有一个,一旦爱上,嘴上花,心里却处处为心爱的人着想,
对自己的另一半绝对忠诚,绝对负责!
他们也会给对方同样程度的信任。如果你欺骗他们,那对他们造成的伤害可想而知。
其实射手座女孩都很敏感,看似什么都不计较,不细心,
其实是因为她们在包容你,所以她会假装什么都不知道。
其实射手座女孩都很硬撑,即使一百个委屈,都习惯用自己的方式,独自一人承担;
真正痛苦的时候,其实没人看得见
当你与他相处一周后,你就应该对他的脾气了解得一清二楚了。
直率、开朗、没有心机的他,总是很轻易把他的喜恶表现出来。
他有一种光明,令人感觉生趣盎然的特质,善良而富有同情心。
当他多愁善感的时侯,他需要你温暖的臂膀,而当你沮丧时,他又能感染你的乐观气质。
因为,他是射手座!
其实感情里的射手座,很像一个小孩。
一切都是那么简单,简单到其他人把他们复杂化。
偶尔耍下小脾气故意不回短信,有时又像个大人似的哄到你心花怒放。
这是一个大多数只懂付出不懂获取的星座。
无论怎么样,他依然会设身处地地为人着想,全因在乎你。
请善待每一个射手座。
射手座, 绝对是最有魅力的星座。不太勤奋,可却有过人的智慧,和超强判断力。
射手平常看起来对感情有点花心,可是那是因为射手的认真,对自己感情的负责。
射手不会同时把感情付出给几个人。他只会不断的寻找属于自己的那个。
体贴细心,婚后对感情的专一,也是独具魅力的
射手对恋人正面的批评很反感,甚至是恼怒。
尽管他们自己知道自己做的不妥,有缺点。
并不是不愿意听恋人的劝告,
因为那些批评的语言会让他们觉得对方是在羞辱自己,
这一点射手是决不接受的!
如果对方以一种开玩笑的语气讲他们的缺点,
他们会更乐意接受并且在内心感激恋人的包容
其实射手座的不论男女都很招人喜欢的,
当时还有朋友给我说喜欢射手座的女孩一定不能小心眼儿,
要不吃醋都吃不完呵呵~
不过射手座对待爱情最大的优点就是他/她真心爱上一个人的话会全身心地去爱,

对待爱情很忠贞的,对另一半也很坦诚的。我觉得这应该是射手座的普遍优点吧!

Thursday, January 9, 2014

Bullying...

After so long time since I updated my blog, and still I want to write something serious here -- Bullying. This is not a fresh topic but the act can actually destroy a person's life forever.

When we mention about bullying, we think about school. Yes, this is where bullying starts. All of us hope to make friends and if possible, make friends with those powerful and influential, so that we can live a better social life in school. Make friends with smart students, leader in clubs, head of class, etc. is a norm. We always see those people have a lot of friends. When we think we are one of their friends, we feel safe, proud and happy. Is that true? Let's think about those unlucky ones. When somebody in your class becomes a target of bullying by those powerful 'friends', you laugh with them, call out names.... And the one being bullied has to bear all sorts of 'crimes' that we all created.  Why they become targets? Because they are not pretty enough? Not smart enough? Always sit silently at the edge of classroom? Looked dumb? Not good in speeches? Clumsy in everything? Fine. Any excuses you can find is the reason why. Please bear in your mind - these victims will end up with psychological trauma, and they might never live a happy life anymore. Guess what? They may become the next college shooter? Serial killer? or whatever. 

What about you? You struggle hard to follow the pace of your powerful friend, to stay alive in your circle of friends, so that you won't become the next target. This cycle repeats everyday, in every school, every club, every society, and now in every workplace too...

Can I say Bullying is a kind of Politic? Especially newbies entering a company, we hope to make friends as much as we can with seniors, bosses, colleagues. Socializing skill has become the major skill apart from your core working skill or knowledge. Pity for those not good in socializing, not good in working, being labelled as lazy, stupid, slow. Soon, this label or funny names will spread across the whole department, then the whole company. So, how about ourselves? Can we make sure we are safe forever from these 'politic players'? We also worried, right? We play their games, agree to their laughing stock, follow their trend, to survive - outwit, outplay, outlast!

Most of the time, Bullying has become a Survivor game. We fight hard to stay in the game, avoiding from being voted out from the circle. However, this is also a reality, it happens before our own eyes every day. Do you ever get tired of playing this game? When you stop playing, will you become the next target? Do you ever think of standing out to join those unlucky ones and fight back? It will definitely be a very tough journey.


I want to apologize here, sometimes we might get along to play their games, in order to survive in workplace politics. When I start to realized that, I have to remind myself, stop this immediately, you are here to HELP them not to watch them suffer. We feel happy by helping people all the time, don't we?

In short, to make things easy, why don't we stop bullying, stop playing this game wherever we are? Show some mercy to the unlucky ones, lend them shoulders, do them a favour. Now it's time to let us create harmony and love and make our workplace a better place! =)



Thursday, June 21, 2012

六月的天空

今天 寂寞感觉忽然又出现
浮现 过去梦中的画面
呼吸着一种孤独的味道
那些最初的美好
早被你搁在一角
你那么冷静 忽远又忽近
我很不服气 也开始怀疑
眼前的人 是不是同一个 真实的你
我知道我对你来说也许太年轻
我想我猜我问我终于了解
原来为爱流的眼泪 也是种甜蜜滋味
是你让我了解自己 可以为爱那么坚定
别傻了 快点喊停
究竟爱我还是逃避 Sorry
我不要求什么 我只想一人走掉
把爱留在街角 就当你永远不会看到
暧昧让人变得贪心 直到等待失去意义
就让记忆中的你慢慢老
带着现实的铐
摺叠我剩余的微笑
通往没有你的轨道
记忆化作 极光出现那一秒
无奈我和你 写不出结局
带着我的祈祷 摺叠我累积的问号
开始一次的单身潜逃
放遗憾的美丽 停在这里
我开始微笑 以后会努力过得 很好
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1.《北极圈》F.I.R.  2.《假装》蔡依琳  3.《单身潜逃》戴佩妮  
4.《暧昧》杨丞琳  5.《只想爱你》杨丞琳
以上这几段文字是我以前依感觉写的。最近忽然又有了这种经历,很想再次把它写下来,彻底做个完美的互动。

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

"Watashi ga Renai Dekinai Riyuu" Quotes

Ep01
恋がしたいのに、うまく恋ができない…
そもそも、恋愛なんて私たちには贅沢なんだろうか?
Wants to be in love, but just can’t make it work. Is love really that much of a thing for us to ask for?

Ep02
友達以上、恋人未満は幸せか?
Can you be happy being more than friends, but less than lovers?

友達以上、恋人未満。
それは時に恋の始まりであり、ゴールでもある。
More than friends, but less than lovers.
That can be the beginning of a relationship, and also can be the end of it.

Ep03
出会いがない、というけれど
出会った事に気づいてないだけかもしれない
They say you don’t have a chance to meet that special someone, but maybe we just don’t notice we do

見過ごしがちなその瞬間を、
「恋の始まり」だと気付けるかどうか…
As time goes on, then we realize it was the start of love...

Ep04
失恋の処方箋
• 新しい恋を始める
• 何かに夢中になる
• 女友達と笑う
これらを組み合わせ 常時服用すること。
Cure for a failed love:
- Start a new love
- Find something to dream about
- Talk with your girl friends
Mix together and take as needed

Ep05
ひかれあう二人がすれ違ってしまった時は、
振り返ってみたほうがいい。
まだ彼の背中が見えるたら、
早く駆け寄って素直になったほうがいい
手遅れにならないうちに…
When two people who are mutually in love become disagreeing with each other,
it's better for you to look back.
If you still can see the back of him,
faster go ahead towards him
before it's too late.

Ep06
方向を変えようとしてるのに
また彼のほうを向かいてしまう。
恋する気持ちの舵取りは
そう簡単にはいかない…
When thinking of changing the direction of love,
but still end up going into his direction.
It's not easy to master the steering of love.

Ep07
恋にさまよってしまったら…
恋以外の何かに目を向けてみるといい
見失ったパズルのピースが
きっと見つかるから
When you are wandering about love...
try to look at other things beside love.
You'll find the missing puzzle pieces.

Ep08
時には恋から離れてみるのもいい
冷静に恋を見つめ直せたら、また恋をしよう。
新しい恋でも。同じ恋でも。
Sometimes it’s good not to worry about love. Take a step back and look things over again. You’ll fall in love again. Maybe a new love. Maybe an old love.

Ep09
分かれ道に立ったなら?
その一歩、勇気を出して踏み出してみよう
その選択がいつか、
かけがえのないものになると信じて
When you are facing choices
be brave to walk out the first step.
To believe that your own choice will be the one that cannot be replaced with something else.

Ep10
思い通りにならなかったり
傷ついたりもする恋だけれど
Although love sometimes goes not as planned,
sometimes it also hurts

恋するという感情は
心を豊かにし
あなたを成長させるはず
Love can enrich your mind and make you grow

幸せの青い鳥は
そんな前向きなあなたの
心の中に棲んでいるのかもしれない
The blue bird of bliss may live in you, whom always move forward and be positive.

--The End--

Saturday, December 17, 2011

给单身的您 -- 「私が恋愛できない理由」 经典字句

现在正在日本热播中的月九日剧《我不能恋爱的理由》 (Watashi ga renai dekinai riyuu) 讲述了现代不同年龄女性,因为种种理由仍旧找不到属于自己的爱情。这部日剧有如单身女性的宝典,每一集都根据剧情列出一些献给单身女性的经典字句,供大家参考。以下是我从每一集抄下及翻译的字句:

 第一話
「恋してますか?」
と聞かれて「はい」と答えられる人がどれくらいいるだろう?
(“你正在恋爱吗?”
被问到这个问题,回答“是”的人有多少呢?)

恋してない理由は?
「これ!と思える男性が周りにいます」
「今は、恋愛より仕事が面白いので」
「女同士でつるんでいるかたが気楽で楽しい」
「そもそも出会いがない」
「恋のしかたを忘れてしまった」
(没在谈恋爱的理由呢?
“没遇到对的男人”
“现在,工作比恋爱更有趣”
“和女性朋友在一起更开心”
“都没什么机会遇到”
“已经忘了如何谈恋爱”)

現在、20代~30代の未婚女性の、約6割に恋人がいない。
そして、そのうち約7割が「恋人がほしい」と答えている。
(现在,20岁 - 30岁的未婚女性当中,约6成没有男朋友。
然后,在这些没有恋人的女性当中,有7成的人都回答“想要有个男朋友”。)

恋がしたいのに、うまく恋ができない…
そもそも、恋愛なんて私たちには贅沢なんだろうか?
(很想谈恋爱,却又不能好好的谈一场……
这么一来,难道对我们来说谈恋爱是多余的事情?)

もしかしたら私たち、
本当に「恋愛できない女たち」なんだろうか?
(难道我们真的就是所谓的‘不能谈恋爱的女人’?)

第二話
友達以上、恋人未満は幸せか?
(朋友以上,恋人未满,会幸福吗?)

友達以上、恋人未満。
それは時に恋の始まりであり、ゴールでもある。
(朋友以上,恋人未满。
这可以是一段恋爱的起点,也可以是终点。)

第三話
出会いがない、というけれど、
出会った事に気づいてないだけかもしれない。
(与其说没遇到,不如说或许已经遇到了,只是没有察觉到。)

見過ごしがちなその瞬間を、
「恋の始まり」だと気付けるかどうか…
(往往在看漏的那个瞬间,
没察觉到一段新恋情已经在发芽了……)

第四話
失恋の処方箋
• 新しい恋を始める
• 何かに夢中になる
• 女友達と笑う
これらを組み合わせ 常時服用すること。
失恋的处方
-  开始新的恋情
-  朝向自己的梦想加油
-  和女性朋友一起欢笑
把这些组合起来,多在平时服用。)

第五話
ひかれあう二人がすれ違ってしまった時は、
振り返ってみたほうがいい。

まだ彼の背中が見えるたら、
早く駆け寄って素直になったほうがいい。

手遅れにならないうちに…

(被互相吸引的两个人,变得相互交错了时,
 应该回头看一看。
 如果还看得到对方的背影,
那就赶紧坦然的跑到他的跟前 。
最好在还没变得为时已晚之前……)

第六話
方向を変えようとしてるのに
また彼のほうを向かいてしまう。
恋する気持ちの舵取りは
そう簡単にはいかない…
(明明想改变爱情的方向,
却偏偏向着他的方向走过去。
想要掌握爱情的方向盘,并没有那么容易……)

第七話
恋にさまよってしまったら…
恋以外の何かに目を向けてみるといい。
見失ったパズルのピースが
きっと見つかるから。
(在为爱情彷徨的时候……
把注意力转向恋爱以外的东西,
你一定会找到不见的那一块拼图。)

第八話
時には恋から離れてみるのもいい。
冷静に恋を見つめ直せたら、また恋をしよう。
新しい恋でも。同じ恋でも。
(有时候,暂时不去想爱情是好的。
当你能冷静的去面对的时候,再谈恋爱吧。
无论是新的恋情,或是旧的都一样。)

第九話
分かれ道に立ったなら?
その一歩、勇気を出して踏み出してみよう
その選択がいつか、
かけがえのないものになると信じて
(当您面临抉择时
拿出勇气 试着迈出那一步吧
相信你的选择,将会成为无可替代之物)

第十話
思い通りにならなかったり
傷ついたりもする恋だけれど
(虽然恋爱总是事与愿违 让人受伤)

恋するという感情は
心を豊かにし
あなたを成長させるはず
(但恋爱这种感觉
可以丰富心灵
让你成长)

幸せの青い鳥は
そんな前向きなあなたの
心の中に棲んでいるのかもしれない
(幸福的青鸟
可能就住在勇往直前的你心中)

--剧终--

Saturday, October 1, 2011


哭 —— 是一种很独特的情绪宣泄方法。 可以因为伤心、生气、烦恼、害怕、感动…… 可是有多少人会想到哭是因为逞强?人往往为了表现得更坚强,无论遇到什么事情都忍,硬着头皮应对,没人看到他们心里的脆弱,其实内心在呐喊着求救,希望这时有人默默的伸出援手。


夜晚独处时,常常想起各种委屈,不必要的付出。这时,才有勇气让自己真情流露,把所有的不甘不愿,苦楚寂寞,都化为眼泪让它不停地流……逞强真的不是长久都可以在做的事,凡是都只能往肚里吞,没人会来问候关心,最后崩溃的还是自己的情绪。


哭,真的不能解决事情。为了避免逞强的太久,还是要学会拿得起,放得下,适时求助他人,帮自己减轻那逞强所累积的怨恨。

Saturday, July 23, 2011

内心的剖白

最近发现到情绪低落时,最能激励自己的还是看看弹着吉他唱歌的女生。每次看到Taylor Swift或YUI 唱现场时,都有一股无形的力量涌上心头,感觉是时候踏出下一步了。那坚定的眼神、灵敏的手指、有力的唱腔,加上感性的歌词,听了让我精神振奋,乱成一团的思绪一瞬间想通了。


繁忙的工作一天下来,希望可以讨得片刻的宁静,就算是望着窗外出神也好,或躺在床上望着天花板也好,总希望可以把脑中的烦恼都解决掉。人际关系的处理总是让人费神,工作的挑战不断消耗脑力和体力。放工回到房里,觉得自己已是淘空的躯壳。一直欲望着有个美好的住处,平静的工作环境,和睦相处的同事,和开朗的性格。但一个人静下来时,其实心里渴望的只不过是希望有一个温柔懂你内心的良伴,给你温暖的拥抱,说一切都会顺利。


开始工作以后,一直找不到自己想要什么。想要更多的知识吗?帮助更多的病人吗?更好的收入吗?更好的生活水准吗?还是遇到一段爱情,以结婚前提好好培养?听说,不知道自己想要什么,是因为想要的东西太多。也许吧~现在闲暇时间,都拿来写写日记、看看戏、上上网、学学吉他,好满足自己扮文艺、扮cool的欲望。直到现在,想要学好音乐的想法都没改变过,想做的事情的确很多。希望自己变得坚强一点,可能因为这样,内心总是按耐不住对有个性的女生的憧憬。最讨厌扮可爱,依赖性强,没主见的女生。内心总是呼吁着可以成为会打理自己生活,对未来有规划的女生。其实也对这种女生有非一般的迷恋,觉得这一种女生最充满魅力。想多了,觉得可怕,会不会性取向颠覆……


每次下定决心开始一天生活后,那个决心的确不能耐多久,就只有那一天充满活力。总是不知问题出现在哪里。心结一直解不开,也找不到源头。往往把失望的事情放大,把开心的事情轻轻略过。感觉为了生存的面具,已找不到适当的时候拆下。一直渴望有个朋友可以让我不顾虑任何事情,滔滔的谈;就算不谈,至少可让我卸下战服,如释重负的开怀相对。那样坦荡荡的一天,几时会到来?

Thursday, June 16, 2011

MAY'S - JULY (Album Version)

JULY (Album Version)
(have a listen here)

作詞︰片桐舞子
作曲︰NAUGHTY BO-Z

もうすぐ終わりが来ると 気付かないフリをしていた
恋人と呼べる時が 今はこんなに愛しくて

少しづつ二人の 想いがすれ違う
歩き出すあなたと 夕立の声に胸が痛い

「ごめんね」まだ あなたを好きでいてもいい?
二度と好きだと言わないから
「ごめんね」ただ「ごめんね」
涙だけが とめどなく溢れ出して止まらない

背中合わせに座って 笑って話をしたね
繋いだ手の温もりを 覚えていなかったあの日

雷鳴に消された記憶をたどる度
「泣き虫」と微笑む あなたの笑顔に泣きたくなる

「愛してる?」と 何度も繰り返し聞いた
頷いたのは嘘だったの?
離れないで 今では言えないまま
夏の午後 終わりかけた砂時計

傾いた星座に二人を重ねても
季節は立ち止まる さよならと言えるその時まで

「ごめんね」まだ あなたを好きでいてもいい?
二度と好きだと言わないから
「ごめんね」ただ「ごめんね」
涙だけが とめどなく溢れ出して止まらない

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English translation by きみ·君

Almost come to an end and without realized I was pretending
Can we still be in love as those times when we call each other as lovers

When our ideas are a bit different and you walked away
my heart feels painful with the sound of the evening pour

"Sorry" Can I still love you?
Because not dare to say love you the second time
The only word appears to be "Sorry"
My tears just can’t stop flowing

Have you forgot about that day we sitting back to back laughing and chatting
And the warmth after we holding hands?

Thunder struck and my forgotten memories followed
Stop crying after u called me "crying nerd" and saw your smiling face

No matter how many times I asked you "Still love me?"
You nodded but actually you lied?
Until today still not saying don’t leave me
Even the hourglass had stopped in that summer afternoon

Even though both of us are overlapped at the inclining constellation
Until the time when the season ends and you say goodbye

"Sorry" Can I still love you?
Because not dare to say love you the second time
The only word appears to be "Sorry"
My tears just can’t stop flowing

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Romaji translation
mousugu owari ga kuru to kizukanai FURI wo shite ita
koibito to yoberu toki ga ima wa konna ni itoshikute

sukoshi zutsu futari no omoi ga surechigau
aruki dasu anata to yuudachi no koe ni mune ga itai

"gomen ne" mada anata wo suki de ite mo ii?
nido to suki da to iwanai kara
"gomen ne" tada "gomen ne" 
namida dake ga tomedonaku afuredashite tomaranai

senaka awase ni suwatte waratte hanashi wo shita ne
tsunaida te no nukumori wo oboete inakatta ano hi

raimei ni kesareta kioku wo tadoru tabi
"nakimushi" to hohoemu anata no egao ni nakitaku naru

"aishiteru?" to nando mo kurikaeshi kiita
unazuita no wa uso datta no?
hanarenaide ima de wa ienai mama
natsu no gogo owari kaketa sunadokei

katamuita seiza ni futari wo kasanete mo
kisetsu wa tachidomaru sayonara to ieru sono toki made

"gomen ne" mada anata wo suki de ite mo ii?
nido to suki da to iwanai kara
"gomen ne" tada "gomen ne"
namida dake ga tomedonaku afure dashite tomaranai

Friday, June 3, 2011

爱情故事


左边的这几套日剧都是经典爱情故事,虽然旧,但值得怀念……











右边的这几套日剧都是比较特殊的爱情故事,虽然不平凡,但很伟大……











无论我们遇到的是怎样的爱情故事,都要好好的体验和珍惜,因为每一个爱情故事都有独特的意义~

Saturday, March 5, 2011

射手座女生

射手女生可能永远也不会知道自己想要的是什么,但是她一直都很清楚,她不想要的是什么。

她总喜欢做幕后的看客,冷冷地,静静地看着一切,在她眼里,一切都在她的意料之中,她并不觉得有什么是新奇的,如果她表现得新奇,那是因为她觉得应该这样做。她像一个看戏的人,永远置身事外。你不要责怪她冷漠,这是她保护自己的唯一方式。她像一只刺猬,随时竖起自己身上的刺,但她的刺不会伤人,她只是用来武装自己。

她不敢要太多的爱,她怕享受完爱之后,剩下的只是加倍的痛。所以当别人对她过度宠爱时,她不但不会欣喜,反而会惊惧地逃走,她不知道怎样回报别人对她的爱,如果你得到她的喜爱,那是因为她已经知道如何面对,如何回报了。她追求那种君子之交淡如水的境界。她懂得爱人,但她不习惯爱人,她知道爱往往伴随着恨,而恨,是太沉重的伤痛,也是太容易让人疲倦的感情。她不想痛,也就懒得去恨,于是,为了防范恨与痛的到来,她只好选择不爱,即使爱,也是淡淡的,冷冷的。别怪她,她是真的不知道如何专注。

她总是固执地认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力,她将自己想得太坚强,而把别人想得太脆弱。她老是担心自己的行为会让别人受到伤害。她不知道,受伤的其实是自己。只是她不知道如何表现出来,她迷糊得像别人所认为的那样,将自己当成一个百毒不侵的人。别以为她很洒脱,很多时候,她其实是放不下的——她比任何人都要敏感,都要细腻,但她不会让你知道,她明白,即使你知道了,也是无济于事。她的心是把握不住的风,她渴望像风一样单纯而自由。

她不是不想平静,她只是找不到平静的理由,她一生都无法明确自己在人世要扮演的角色,她只有不停地寻求,寻求自己最终的目的。如果她找到了,她会毫不犹豫地停下来,从此放弃心灵的漂泊。很遗憾,她永远也不会满足,她的追求永不停止。她的心再累,无法逼迫自己放弃梦想,梦想是她唯一的支撑点。

千万别让她失望。因为她学不会原谅,她非常渴求完美,虽然她知道世间没有绝对的完美,但,她有绝对追求完美的执着。你若令她失望,她会不可挽回地离开,即使她的心在滴血,即使痛楚重得要压垮她的生命,她也绝不回头。那个时候,你在她脸上所看到的,是让人寒心的决绝。即使她还在你的身边,她的心也早就离你十万八千里,你看不到她的恨,但是你会感受到比恨还让人痛苦的冷淡。她的离开是心灵的离开。

她可以在前半分钟对你好得让你受宠若惊,也可以在后半钟冷漠得让你不可接受。不要问她为什么这样善变,她也不知道。当你看到她在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时,千万不要迷惑,不管她看起来是多么的疯狂,她内心其实是冷静的,她比你们任何一个旁观者更知道如何处理快乐与悲伤,她只是习惯——也可以说是喜欢将一切都变得疯狂。因为她觉得这是义务,也是权利,她是制造气氛的能手,她的一句俏皮话会让一切轻快起来,但她的一声叹息又会将一切都弄得很沉重。

她总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与忧郁。她并不如你们看到的那么快乐,同样,也不如你们看到的那么忧伤,只是,她忧郁时,喜欢带上快乐的面具,而当她快乐时,忧郁又不肯轻易放过她。在她的世界里,盛着的不是快乐的源泉,而是她不愿在人前滴下的泪水。你看到的她,笑起来像一个孩子,你有时会认为她天真得像是童话里走出来的天使。但是,你若有心,你会看到她沉静时脸上挥之不去的忧伤,还有她的眼底,竟那么凝重地积压着一种看破红尘的味道。她只有在午夜无人的时候,才会完全地释放自己。她不会在众目睽睽之下表露她的无助,她的彷徨,她的沧桑。

她心里的,是永远流不尽的泪。你所看到的坚强,只是她在竭力掩饰的脆弱。

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Roses vs violets

Roses are red, violets are blue,
Both are equally beautiful.
Girls in red, boys in blue,
Both are equally colourful.
But this doesn't mean girls are horny like roses,
And boys are soft like violets.
Life has no exact rule,
We should live freely as our will,
As long as the life is wonderful.



Friday, September 24, 2010

尾声的感触

一年PRP的生活也将近尾声了……当初还带着复杂、困扰的心情踏进Hospital Kulim,现在觉得这里的人都很友善,很亲切,为我孤零零的寂寞带来不少色彩。新环境、穷知识的障碍都一一克服,迎来的是面对人际关系的从容,和面对病人的自信。其实回想起来,我真的忘记了如何走到今天,一年感觉上过得很快,都来不及消化,就结束了。将要面对的是另一轮可能的离别,可能的新环境。离别对我来说,已经没那么伤感,活到如今23岁,都经历了不少离别的场面,已习以为常。每次的离别,都会告别一批朋友,虽然都很少再见到面,但还是值得珍惜那段短暂的友谊。

这一次可能的离别也不例外,让我念念不忘的仍旧是那些抹也抹不去的开心回忆。虽然大家都同事一场,但你们的热情和笑声是我最舍不得的。我们之间或许已不是只成为简单的同事,是不一样的朋友,不同年龄阶层,不同身份的朋友,亦是上下属,亦是朋友的关系。衷心感谢你们这一年来不嫌弃我少不更事,耐心教导和照顾,给我的鼓励和关心。

人长大了,面对人际关系的态度也会不一样。可能会越来越麻木,越来越冷漠,甚至是带着面具过日子,这就是Lady Gaga所谓的 'poker face'。我的确很害怕我的那一天会到来。人生活得越来越低调,开心的事情不声张,伤心的事情不吐嘈,迟一点就是木头人一个。因此,天天要提醒自己,开心就要从心底笑开来,伤心流几滴眼泪也没关系。尝试敞开心扉来接受一天的好与坏,多关心身边的人与事,才是正确的生活方式,才是朝向真正快乐的途径。只要有正确的生活态度,多艰苦的挫折都不是绊脚石,至少我是相信着这个道理,秉持着这个信念活到现在。在此,我希望大家都能相信有更好的明天,期盼着像彩虹般灿烂的光辉!

Friday, July 9, 2010

简单的幸福

久违了的部落格,今晚就和你一起叙说‘幸福’……

早上一起身,耳边传来了琴声,是邻居的小孩在弹钢琴,让我免费欣赏了美妙的古典音乐。

这个周末总算不需要写报告,难得一时兴起,看歌词自己唱歌唱了一个小时,自己欣赏自己的歌声。

那晚发了恶梦,发现你可能死了,醒来时,幸好只是个梦。

由此可见,幸福可以很简单。不一定要拥有什么,才算是幸福。没有失去,也算是一种幸福。不曾失去的东西,人们是不懂得珍惜的。所以,要捉住幸福,也要懂得珍惜。

请问你们是否也拥有简单的幸福呢?

Friday, April 2, 2010

Truth about Pharmacists Job

When I first entered university, I liked to ask this question to my course mates, "Why do u choose pharmacy?" The answers vary- "I want to get rich", that's the most common answer; "I don't want to study medic but I like biology", second common; "Girls not suitable to be engineers, so choosing pharmacy instead, as I was studying physics", third common; other answers like friends influence, parents influence are available too. Then, after I graduated, I ask this question to the to-be pharmacists and pharmacists, "Do u really wanted to choose pharmacy in the first place?" Guess what? Most of the answers are "I was being cheated!!!" together with a sad and regretful face...

All these happens because we don't know the actual role of pharmacists and what kind of job a pharmacist really is. What we see is pharmacists outside there are rich, with big house and great car, relax life as they only open their shops at 10am. If choose based on subjects studied in pre-U, then pharmacy is the option if not choosing medic, thinking that pharmacy is just like medic without the surgery. Then the regret comes when we realized all of the view of pharmacists we have all the time is WRONG! This is not the job we want! This is not our interests! Then the struggle is stronger when being told that we have to do compulsory services and our working place have to reshuffle again after one year... What? We are not being told all of these before!!! Then here comes the statement, "If I know that earlier...." and so the regret adding more and more even until we become a pharmacist now.

People thought that pharmacist is a wonderful job dealing with doctors where everybody proud of... or pharmacist is those who open a shop and sitting there acting like a doctor; or just a person who sits at counter giving out medicine where a nurse can do it, so pharmacist is not needed at all...

No! Let me tell u who is a pharmacist...
There are pharmacists who deal with doctors and patients only - clinical pharmacist;
pharmacist who are 'rich and relax' - community or retail pharmacist;
pharmacist who deal with paper works, machine and quality of medicine - industrial pharmacist;
pharmacist who carries law books and do raiding - enforcement pharmacist;
pharmacists who deal with patients, nurses and medicines - outpatient and inpatient pharmacists;
pharmacists who deal with stocks and sales rep - store pharmacists;
pharmacists who handle chemotherapy (cancer) medicines - cytotoxic drug pharmacists;
pharmacists who deal with blood and reading - TDM pharmacist;
pharmacists who handle injectable nutritional solutions - TPN pharmacist;
pharmacists who deal with radioactive substances - radiopharmacist
what else I have not included yet?

The above are the kind of job a pharmacist can do... then let me tell u what do a hospital pharmacist do...
1) Answer telephone (info request, on-call, complaints, etc...)
2) Calling the ward and doctors, medicine companies and sales rep (also a telephone job)
3) Calling to other hospitals (borrowing medicines...)
4) Searching medicine information
5) Filling and dispense medicines
6) Finding doctor's errors (That's the reason doctors and pharmacists always in quarrel)
7) Check stock
8) Merchandising (first-in-first-out rule, just like in department store)
9) Copying patient bed tickets (instead of reviewing)
10) Mixing syrup (just like making coffee and milk)
11) Calculating (dose and TDM work)
12) Filling forms
13) Counselling patients
14) Decorating??? (For the 5S things)
15) Doing presentations and research

hmm.... Do I miss out anything? So, a pharmacist is a manager? a businessman? a telephone operator? a walking computer? a clerk? a store keeper? a counsellor? a researcher?
Sometimes even an entertainer? Because some patients like to scold pharmacists when they are waiting for too long, so its the chance for us to entertain the patients... We are not deal with medicines only, neither patients only. In short, a pharmacist is a multi-role job where I also can't find a word to define it.

How about the life of a pharmacist in government sector? Well, it is a "punch card" life... Every morning drag a reluctant soul to punch card before 8am then hoping don't have to meet any stubborn and 'aggressive' patients and doctors, waiting for 1pm to have lunch break, then waiting for 5pm to punch card again... During on-call time, praying for the phone not to ring, praying for a good sleep without disturbing of phone calls... haha... Quite boring and dry lifestyle huh...

But things will change. Try to put aside the regret and think. As we working, we acquire knowledge and collect experiences, as time goes by, we'll build up our confidence as a real multi-purpose pharmacist!

So, these are the truths that no outsiders will know except u work as a hospital pharmacists before... Therefore, to the students who wish to choose pharmacy, make sure u really interview a hospital pharmacist first; to the doctors, do understand us and not blame us all the time; to the public, do appreciate us after receiving your medicines as all the medicines u received are free of charge, so stop complaining!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

连续剧的精髓

对很多人来说,连续剧或许只是一种消遣、娱乐。可是,我却常常从连续剧里学到东西。我喜欢心理学,自然也对心理病症有兴趣。

这也是很大的因素让我爱上
Criminal Minds (犯罪心理)。 现在已经是第5个 season了, 我还是一集一集追下去。每一集通常都有不同的故事,常常也有介绍不同的心理病症。之前都有妄想症、性格障碍症、忧郁症等等。戏里也教我们如何辨认这些人,如何去救他们,如何去开导他们。患有这些病症的人,到某个程度都会有犯罪心理。撇开法律不说,其实这些人都很可怜。他们背着以往挥之不去的包袱,过着与平常人不一样的生活,想不开时,周围的人都会遭殃,最后他们也会伤害自己。虽然后果都会被警察捉,可是解除那个心理障碍才是重点。

Season 5 Episode 13 的这集,就介绍了
Münchausen syndrome。患有这种病的人,会不断的伤害自己或身边所照顾的人,让他不断的生病,进院,以借此机会照顾他。这是患者长期得不到关怀,以另一种方式来引起别人的关注。其实之前,我在日剧"Voice"(亡者之声)里,也有看过类似的病症,或许这种病在外国已越来越普遍吧。

读书时有读到
schizophrenia, bipolar disorder等病症,通称为“神经病”。但是都不很了解真正的病况,在医院实习时,病人都在接受治疗,也就看起来很正常,很难分辨了。在戏里,虽然可能不是100%正确的症状,至少可以看到患者会做出的举动,和带来的后果,的确是学了不少。

看了那么多集了,也认识了很多心理病症,这更加激发我去读心里学的那热忱。但实际来想,我纯粹是因为好奇才想读,读了没用到,会不会浪费呢?或许可以帮忙身边的人和自己克服心理障碍吧!

Sunday, December 27, 2009

一亿三千万人的选择!Best Artist

每年都会期待年尾的到来,因为有一连串的节日和假期,不知不觉到了年尾也会比较开心。总算踏入了22岁,踏入了工作生涯,一切都是新的开始,然而到今天都还找不到新的人生目标,日常生活也变得有点漂浮。以前念大学时,至少一切努力都是为了那一纸文凭,现在也不知应为什么而努力。在网上surf了好多天,总算有收获,至少我的生活少不了日本歌和日剧。

这几天看了连续几年的「一亿三千万人的选择!Best Artist」节目,发现还有很多好听的日本歌是我没听过的。有些歌手唱现场果然魅力无法挡,有些则没唱得比CD里好。

首先,我一定要提的是连续3年都进入「一亿三千万人的选择!Best Artist」的 '
kobukuro' (コブクロ)和平井堅。他们的唱功是无可质疑的。以抒情歌演绎,他们俩都唱得感情投入,加上歌词有字幕翻译,富有意义的歌词加上动人的旋律,最能感动听众的歌手非他们莫属 (我都听得想哭出来呢!)我最爱的是コブクロ的「」。总觉得那首歌很有意义,也有鼓励大家要坚强的意思。平井堅的「いつか離れる日は来ても」是很悲的一首歌,也是2008电影「あの空をおぼえてる」(勿忘那片天)的主题歌。(这电影让我从开始哭到尾,导演真是坏心肠!)平井堅唱这首歌时都唱到眼泪也差点流出来……><''' (他的歌声中总觉得有很浓的寂寞和空虚……) 看这个节目也顺便让我update日本娱乐圈的新闻。我一向来还蛮喜欢的EXILE,忽然变成了14个成员,我真的吓到。EXILE的歌,我还是选择只听不看,感觉比较好……(其中一个原因当然是成员都不帅 =p) 歌声温柔的ELT (Every Little Thing),我最熟悉的歌就是1998 年的「Time goes by」,那时是我刚“踏入日本娱乐圈”时所认识的这首好歌。GLAY 的出场让我有点兴奋,但却没唱到我所爱的「ここではない、どこかへ」。V6 的歌我好久没听了,这次听了觉得还不错,仍旧有他们一贯的风格。当时认识他们时是因为看Ultraman Tiga,之后就停留在「Change the World」的时代了。Porno Graffiti (ポルノグラフィティ) 唱 「アゲハ蝶」(凤蝶)时,听到那么熟悉的旋律,顿时有点激动。看他们唱歌,觉得很自在,不必担心唱不起高音或唱得不够投入,果然是一种享受!ゆず(yuzu) 虽然是旧团体,却很少听到他们的歌,觉得蛮不错。其实令我惊讶的是原来那主唱是北川悠仁 (真惭愧……囧),第一次见过他是在和堀北真希主演的「Innocent Love」里。


KAT-TUNNEWS関ジャニ∞TOKIO,这些就不谈了,因没什么深刻印象,认识他们都是在日剧里。(抱歉 =( )

aiko 甜美的歌声依旧,绚香的歌声的确无人能比,在「三日月」里见识过了。倖田来未的歌,我不是很喜欢,只觉得她专门唱舞曲,不是我的taste。Perfume 那机械式的唱法,我还是不能认同。唉~ 反观生物股长(いきものがかり)的出道曲「SAKURA」,真的很好听,在这里为他们鼓掌。桑田佳祐的台风当然是最好的了,看到他不仅想起Southern All Stars,好想念当时的名曲「TSUNAMI」。

噔噔噔噔,轮到谈我最爱的
中島美嘉SPEED了!!!!! O(∩_∩)O 中島美嘉唱现场一直都是那么的投入、感人肺腑,我听得五体投地!「ORION」也好、新歌「流れ星」也好,都是很感动的歌曲。(她好像不太会讲话,连发言也只是说谢谢,感觉跟平井堅很像哦……难道他们俩只把感想写进歌里吗?)另一方面,SPEED出场的尖叫声不断,证明了她们的粉丝依然不少!少不了大家熟悉的「White Love」、「Steady」、「Body & Soul」,本来我很期待她们唱「S.P.D.」的,哪知却没有,好失望哦~

最后,当然是压轴的
浜崎あゆみ嵐 (ARASHI)了。我还是喜欢浜崎あゆみ以前的歌,如「M」、「Season」,当晚她唱「Evolution」却唱不起,接不到气,真是丢脸,步姐要好好加油,照顾嗓子哦~ 当晚,也唱了不少很怀念的歌,如「A · RA · SHI」、「感謝カンゲキ雨嵐」,抢尽整个节目的风头了。

今年以新旧歌曲演绎方式,感觉还不错,可以唤起不同年代的人的记忆,唱着大家熟悉的歌曲,从而引起共鸣。唯一的遗憾,
大塚愛姐姐和 B'z 大叔好像今年没来哦…… 无论如何,本人希望这个节目会继续,而且越做越好,越精彩,也让其他的歌手有机会亮相!(本人强力推荐: Uverworld、宇多田ヒカル、Chemistry、L'Arc~en~Ciel,大家都是好厉害的歌手,明年要加油哦!)

1亿3000万人が选ぶ!ベストアーティスト,万歳!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

新的人生旅程

当初还很天真的告诉自己得到哪里都会接受,却到了最后关头,才苦苦哀求希望得到最靠近家里的医院。当初也很天真的告诉自己希望去一个陌生的地方,重头来过,过新的生活。现在才尝到人生地不熟的痛苦。独自一个人来到了Hospital Kulim, 没有朋友,只好硬挤出笑容来面对每个人,其实心里是一直忐忑不安,担心自己将会面对怎样的挑战。

总算,千辛万苦过了一个星期。到了周末的那一刻,还真是有点小激动的快乐。医院的服务讲求速度和素质。在outpatient 部门,手上拿着15个药的prescription, 一心想达到快速度和高素质,还真的是困难。加上数学白痴的我,要算每一种药一个月的supply还真是费了我不少功夫。算着insulin的unit, 站在冰箱前大半天,都算不出一个月要给多少支的insulin, penolong farmasi 在一旁看我惊慌的样子,他都不需要20秒的时间就算到了……还有明明同样的药拿了几次,却总是忘记它的位置。我还真是善忘。想要快的时候,却拿错了dose……当面对这样的情况时,要我在病人面前挤出笑容来dispense,简直就做不到。

一直忙到lunch time, 自己没有车,又人生地不熟,有同事愿意载,已经是很好了。又怕人家等太久,又匆忙把手头上的工作做完,跟大家出去吃饭。这时候,要我在同事前脸带笑容,也是很勉强的事。一向不擅交际的我,吃饭时间只好静静吃饭,坐在一旁听senior PRP 们高谈阔论。

放工了,幸好还回到自己熟悉的家,熟悉的房间,熟悉的冲凉房,洗了热澡,还有我熟悉的 laptop上网。到了晚上,那些在工作时隐藏的疲累,都接踵而来。这时连MSN都懒得 sign in了。身为 PRP, 竟然要记录每天所作的事情,要给preceptor 看,回来还要伤脑筋,怎样写才能让preceptor 满意,这简直是虐待……

到了周末,总算有得睡得比较迟。想到晚上又要上吉他课,练了两个星期的 F chord 还弹不出来,还真的觉得自己不够上进。到了课室,幸好今天教《隐形的翅膀》,是我熟悉的激励歌曲,这星期才算满意收场。音乐始终是让我放松的好帮手,看来我要多靠靠“音乐”这家伙了。

明天就开始正式posting, 在ward supply 部门,也是个不能放松,和讲究速度和素质的地方,看来我又有气要受了……

Saturday, September 5, 2009

When Health Care Gets Ugly - Pfizer to Pay $2.3 Billion for Fraudulent Marketing of Bextra-

Health care should be a field that gains the trust of the public for better quality of life. However, when comes to the line between ethics and profits, people tend to become greedy... money is the thing they choose in the end and people lives being put in danger...

Here's the excerpt of the news...

"WASHINGTON – American pharmaceutical giant Pfizer have agreed to pay $2.3 billion, the largest health care fraud settlement in the history of the Department of Justice, to resolve criminal and civil liability arising from the illegal promotion of certain pharmaceutical products..."

"...a felony violation of the Food, Drug and Cosmetic Act for misbranding Bextra with the intent to defraud or mislead. Bextra is an anti-inflammatory drug that Pfizer pulled from the market in 2005..."

"In addition, Pfizer has agreed to pay $1 billion to resolve allegations under the civil False Claims Act that the company illegally promoted four drugs – Bextra; Geodon, an anti-psychotic drug; Zyvox, an antibiotic; and Lyrica, an anti-epileptic drug – and caused false claims to be submitted to government health care programs for uses that were not medically accepted indication..."

"Illegal conduct and fraud by pharmaceutical companies puts the public health at risk, corrupts medical decisions by health care providers, and costs the government billions of dollars," said Tony West, Assistant Attorney General for the Civil Division."
(Full text of news here)

From another website, here's the excerpt...

"The FDA rejected a company application to market the drug for uses like that because the benefits didn't outweigh the risks, mainly cardiovascular problems. Bextra was approved to relieve arthritis pain (10 milligrams once a day) and menstrual pain (20 milligrams twice a day). But Pfizer touted Bextra heavily for other conditions and at higher doses anyway..."

"...encouraging doctors to start patients at high doses of Bextra--eight times the approved starting dose in the case of migraine patients..."
(Full text here)

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Utada Hikaru 宇多田 ヒカル

I believe the name "Utada" is known by the public even for those who do not listen to Japanese songs much. Apparently, she was popularly known by her famous love song "First Love" in 1999, as the theme song for the popular Japanese drama "majo no jouken" (魔女の条件). Apart from "First Love", there are other 4 songs which were the theme songs of popular Japanese dramas: "Can you keep a secret?" for "Hero", "Flavor of Life" for "hana yori dango" (日本流星花园), "Prisoner of Love" for the big hit and full of controversial drama "Last Friends", and the latest "Eternally -Drama Mix-" for "Innocent Love". As I know, Utada is among the artists that has most songs become the theme songs of popular Japanese dramas. Big applause for Utada!!!

Tonight, as I saw 8tv Quickie was giving out Utada latest English album "This is the One" for lucky winners, I think it is already the time for me to write something about Utada here. Utada songs are never the same as other pop songs, as she is the songwriter for all her own songs, she got her own unique ideas towards music and always let her feelings free flow in her songs to the best. Never be forgotten, beside the unique music, her lyrics are another awesome strength that lure the listeners into her music world. Even though she is only 16 years old when she wrote the song "First Love", Utada love song had attracted millions of listeners. Throughout the years, from experience of marriage to divorce, and also the hard times when she suffered from ovarian tumour, once again she returned with the album "Heart Station" with more mature lyrics and more complicated feelings in her songs. "Flavor of Life" described the feeling of a girl with relationship problem and the way a girl handle it; and "Prisoner of Love" which perfectly portrayed the situation of the characters in the drama "Last Friends" where the characters strive to live on with the controversial relationships.

She has never failed with her Japanese songs, however, when she decided to go for American market in 2004, the response for her English songs was a failure. Utada Japanese style of songs being applied in English songs could not make it through. Over 5 years, this year, she once again stepped on the international music arena with her brand new album "This is the One", with the big hit "Come Back to Me", we know she gonna make it this time. This is the first time I can listen to her English song "Come Back to me" over and over again for more than 10 times per day as no different from her Japanese songs. I thought to myself, "She did it!" In "This is the One" album, we can feel her deepest honesty. She even admitted her betrayal towards her husband in the song "Come Back to Me". In other songs, she wrote in many of her deep feeling and ideas and even her own lifestyles. Through this album, I can say, her distance with her listeners has narrowed. We can feel what she feel, we understand what she went through, and we encourage and support her.

Finally, Utada English songs has gained recognition in the Asia market. We all satisfied with her hard work this time, and we really appreciate her songs which have accompanied us through happy and sad, easy and hard, high and low times. We hope from the bottom of our heart that we can listen more and more Utada songs in the future. Utada, gambatte ne!!!

Monday, August 31, 2009

您多久没翻阅您的相簿了?

昨晚,寂寞感觉忽然又出现,浮现过去梦中的画面……心血来潮重看了「Last Friends」 special episode。片尾的那一句:“家人、朋友、夫妻、恋人,包括了这四种关系,却又不属于任何一种。今后要保持这段脆弱的感情,坚强地活下去。” 然后以一张充满笑靥的照片作为完结的最后一幕。

照片似乎是人生活着的证据,也是最巩固的回忆。人生没有重来,相机‘卡擦’ 的那一刻,所有的喜怒哀乐都进了框框里。然而,科技的进步却违反了自然界的原则。使用数码相机,拍错了重拍,不美的重拍,不管多少次,拍到满意为止,不要的可永远从记忆中删除。拍好的照片,直接输入电脑,烧进CD里,把它藏进橱里就是了,省时省力又省钱。脑子里是说有空时随时可拿出来看,那试问曾几何时,你真的有把CD拿出来看?每个月?每年?从来没有?

相簿,我相信每个人家里都会有。自从有了数码相机,您的相簿多久没 ‘进货’ 了?发黄了吗?还是不知藏到哪了?还是铺满灰尘蜘蛛网,已经成为蜘蛛一家人的家了?看相簿通常都会花上一整晚的时间,看照片其实是几分钟的事情,其余的都是在发梦,望着照片出神,脑海不知飘到几千里外,几十年前。没有数码相机之前,或许拍到的照片都不很完美。虽然不很美,却翻了又翻,看了又看,想找回当时的一丝回忆。现在的照片,edit 了又edit,作到最完美就是了。肥的改瘦,黑的改白。改到最美,最不像原本的自己。请问那张照片,还有意思吗?放在电脑里看,其实很麻烦,又伤神,又有辐射,看照片的次数就更少,看照片里的自己,那么不真实,虽然改得最美,那是做给人家看的,因为要以最完美的一面示人。

人生可以这样完美吗?把不想要的东西,不想回忆起的事情,永远delete掉,说sayounara,永远不必看到它?做得不够完美,想重来;或想再一次体验同样的时光,return, back, 然后repeat又repeat?

人生不能重来,回忆不能删除,做错事不能edit,唯有珍惜当下地活下去。


P.S. 以下是我求学时期最怀念的时刻……