您多久没翻阅您的相簿了？

昨晚，寂寞感觉忽然又出现，浮现过去梦中的画面……心血来潮重看了「Last Friends」 special episode。片尾的那一句：“家人、朋友、夫妻、恋人，包括了这四种关系，却又不属于任何一种。今后要保持这段脆弱的感情，坚强地活下去。” 然后以一张充满笑靥的照片作为完结的最后一幕。

照片似乎是人生活着的证据，也是最巩固的回忆。人生没有重来，相机‘卡擦’ 的那一刻，所有的喜怒哀乐都进了框框里。然而，科技的进步却违反了自然界的原则。使用数码相机，拍错了重拍，不美的重拍，不管多少次，拍到满意为止，不要的可永远从记忆中删除。拍好的照片，直接输入电脑，烧进CD里，把它藏进橱里就是了，省时省力又省钱。脑子里是说有空时随时可拿出来看，那试问曾几何时，你真的有把CD拿出来看？每个月？每年？从来没有？

相簿，我相信每个人家里都会有。自从有了数码相机，您的相簿多久没 ‘进货’ 了？发黄了吗？还是不知藏到哪了？还是铺满灰尘蜘蛛网，已经成为蜘蛛一家人的家了？看相簿通常都会花上一整晚的时间，看照片其实是几分钟的事情，其余的都是在发梦，望着照片出神，脑海不知飘到几千里外，几十年前。没有数码相机之前，或许拍到的照片都不很完美。虽然不很美，却翻了又翻，看了又看，想找回当时的一丝回忆。现在的照片，edit 了又edit，作到最完美就是了。肥的改瘦，黑的改白。改到最美，最不像原本的自己。请问那张照片，还有意思吗？放在电脑里看，其实很麻烦，又伤神，又有辐射，看照片的次数就更少，看照片里的自己，那么不真实，虽然改得最美，那是做给人家看的，因为要以最完美的一面示人。

人生可以这样完美吗？把不想要的东西，不想回忆起的事情，永远delete掉，说sayounara，永远不必看到它？做得不够完美，想重来；或想再一次体验同样的时光，return, back, 然后repeat又repeat？

人生不能重来，回忆不能删除，做错事不能edit，唯有珍惜当下地活下去。


P.S. 以下是我求学时期最怀念的时刻……

怨 ・ 躁

我以为人长大了，比较会想，比较成熟，可以做出个更好的判断和决定。哪知，却是越来越笨，越来越会埋怨，脾气越来越暴躁。以前人小小，却装大人要解决一切问题，大了，却选择发泄，顶撞，逃避……

以前觉得自寻短见的人很笨，现在却非常同情他们，他们也是失控了，才会做这个选择。自杀不遂的人并不值得同情，反而会被看轻，明明可以一了了之，却带给别人那么多麻烦，没有足够勇气和坚持，就别尝试。

埋怨可以宣泄情绪，免得憋太久造成疾病。暴躁是埋怨的一种表达方式，猛捶桌子，叫骂，不只伤了桌子还伤了人心。知道这样不好，却明知故犯。

人长越大，做错越多。小错铸成大错，大错不能挽回，惊慌失措。失措造成失控，失控变笨拙。

笨到失去理智，只剩下埋怨和暴躁的地步了……

UTAKATA by SPEED

きっとそう、誰のせいでもなくて。
あなたは彼女を選んだ…それだけ。
だから謝ることない
願わくは　せめて彼女を幸せにしてあげて

Just like 愛は泡沫(Bubble)
そう、そんなのは通説…平気だよ。
キスも囁きも　約束も　想い出に変えるの
…本当に大好きだったから。

あなたを追ってこの街に来た日
何度も人にぶつかリ謝り　渡れない信号の向い
あなた見つけ照れ笑い　駆け出した青信号(Green light)
私には向いてなかったみたい
めまぐるしい都会の暮らし
そしてもうない…此処(ここ)にいる理由。
終えたチケットの手配、明日(あす)の朝一のフライト。

ほんの少し前はスミレが咲いた
あの空地にもビルが建つみたい
…変わらないものなど　きっとない。
強がって　許して　忘れて　笑って　進むしかない

ただ“愛”と知る。
もう離れて生きる　あなただけど
何も諦めないで欲しいの…誰が背中向けても。
あなたは寂しがりだから

あなたに逢って恋に落ちたあのビーチ
私には見慣れてる夕陽　あなたは「言葉も出ない」
そう言って　遠く切ない表情(かお)をした…忘れない。
私にはそうね　合っているみたい
穏やかな　あそこでの暮らし
凪(なぎ)迎えた海が見たい　潮騒が聞きたい

誰もが避けられない　別れや哀しいすれ違い[別れやすれ違い]
すべてに意昧があると信じたい

Legend of mermaid まるでおとぎ話
違ってた　二人の住む世界
“結ばれない”別々の未来
…わかってたはずじゃない、そんなことくらい。
私には向いてなかったみたい
めまぐるしい都会の暮らし
そしてもうない…此処にこ)にいる理由。
終えたチケットの手配、明日(あす)の朝一のフライト。

後悔はしてない　あなたとの出逢い
あの日惹かれ、焦がれ、抱かれ、愛した…精一杯。
後悔はしてない　あなたとの出逢い
ある日惹かれ、焦がれ、抱かれ I gotta say goodbye

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Romaji by きみ・君

Kitto sou, dare no sei de mo nakute
Anata wa kanojo wo eranda… sore dake
Dakara ayamaru koto nai
Negawaku wa semete kanojo wo shiawase ni shite agete

Just like ai wa Bubble
Sou, sonna no wa tsusetsu… heiki da yo
KISU mo sasayaki mo yakusoku mo omoida ni kaeru no
... hontou ni daisuki datta kara

Anata wo oitte kono machi ni kita hi
Nando mo hito ni butsukari ayamari watarenai shingou no mukai
Anata mitsuke terewarai kakedashita Green Light

Watashi ni wa muite nakatta mitai
Memagurushii tokai no kurashi
Soshite mou nai koko ni iru riyuu
Owarieta CHIKETTO no tehai, asu no asaichi no FURAITO

Honno sukoshi mae wa SUMIRE ga saita
Ano akichi ni mo BIRU ga tatsu mitai
... kawarenai mono nado kitto nai
Tsugatte yurushite wasurete waratte susumushikanai

Tada ai to shiru
Mou hanarete ikiru anata dakedo
Nani mo akiramenaide hoshii no… dare ga senaka muketemo
Anata wa sabishigari dakara

Anata ni aette koi ni ochita ano BIICHI
Watashi ni wa minareteru yuuhi anata wa “kotoba mo denai”
Sou itte tooku setsunai kao wo shita... wasurenai
Watashi ni sou ne atte iru mitai
Odayakana asokode no kurashi
Nagi mukaeta umi ga mitai shiosai ga kikitai

Daremo ga sakerarenai wakare ya kanashii surechigai (wakare ya surechigai)
Subete ni imi ga aru to shinjitai

Legend of mermaid maru de otogi hanashi
Chigatteta futari no sumu sekai
"musubarenai" betsu betsu no mirai
… wakatteta hazu janai, sonna koto kurai

Watashi ni wa muite nakatta mitai
Memagurushii tokai no kurashi
Soshite mou nai koko ni iru riyuu
Owarieta CHIKETTO no tehai, asu no asaichi no FURAITO

Koukai wa shitenai anata to no deai
Ano hi hikare, kogare, dakare, aishita... seiippai
Koukai wa shitenai anata to no deai
Aru hi hikare, kogare, dakare I gotta say goodbye

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「UTAKATA」 is the second track from the new single "S.P.D." from SPEED. This single finally managed to draw back the heart of many SPEED fans due to the disappointment of the last single 「あしたの空」. Personally I love this song most in this single. The music is quite relaxing at the starting of the verse then gradually become a bit 'agitated' in the end. I salute them as this song is so hard to sing... not in the sense of high pitch but in the sense of the lyric. All the words stick together when sing, make my tongue twisted.. haha... Actually SPEED's songs are always difficult to sing... But I'm still happy to sing it! (my idol all the time!)

This is the link of the "UTAKATA" from imeem, have a listen.
http://www.imeem.com/groups/WLTpcbGX/music/m5zLLicJ/speed-utakata-preview/

Extras:
PV of "S.P.D." - very hot and hip hop style, HAVE A LOOK!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4K9xOGNWzPw

LIVE version of "S.P.D."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OGrX6w99fLg

ENJOY!!!

988 Simon san の楽園

自从988换了新概念和新节目后，我最爱的 “Simon san の楽園” 时段竟然消失了。那可是全大马唯一一个日韩歌曲节目，有那么多的忠实听众，陪伴了我那么多年，竟然一个交待都没有，就从新节目表中被抽离了……

从 “988有声有色” 变成 “988最好听”，当初我听到这个口号时，还真的对新节目充满期待。怎知新节目表出来了，节目名字都取得有点奇怪，节目类别有点空洞，很多大家喜爱的DJ都不见了。

听了一个月的新988，都不是胃口，难以下肚，更怀念以前的 “988有声有色”。现在的988都不知是瞄准哪个听众群，好像没有更明确的旨意。立志成为最好听的电台应该不是这个样子的。只觉得988的灵魂不见了~

我还是打从心底希望这我支持多年的电台可以继续改进，成为真正好听的电台。现在，只好在这里默默为 “Simon san の楽園” 哀悼了……

（如果有哪个好心人知道Simon san的去向，请告诉我哦，多谢了！）

Earl Grey tea

The first time I know about this tea was in Dan Brown's "The Da Vinci Code", which the character Sir Leigh Teabing like to drink Earl Grey tea with lemon and Professor Langdon was asked by Sir Leigh for the answer for "milk or sugar?". Put aside coffee, tea is one of the most popular drink after all. No matter it is British tea, Ceylon tea, Chinese tea, red tea or green tea, u name it, people from all around the world have their own preference of tea in their own countries. People drinks tea for many reasons too - for health, to keep fit, as a past time, a tradition, or simply - love it.

I can't recall actually since when I joined the group "tea lovers" rather than "coffee addicts". I like to drink Chinese tea after a heavy meal, with the belief that tea can help to reduce fat in our body (which is may be just my belief), and tea can 'wash away' whatever taste that left on your tongue after meal. This is an advantage that coffee doesn't have... Haha ^^ Whenever I dining in 'Mamak stall', I always order 'teh o limau' (which is Ceylon tea with lemon). It tastes good!

Yesterday, I went to the newly opened "Who's Bryan" coffee house at Ong Yi How (opposite Chung Ling Butterworth), never in my imagination, I found this "Earl Grey" in the menu. Without second thought, I ordered it. Before I talk about the taste, let us have some history here first...

Earl Grey is a tea blended with Bergamot oil (a type of fragrant orange, called "香柠檬" in Chinese). The tea is named after the second Earl Charles Grey, a British Prime Minister from 1830 - 1834. Since the taste of Bergamot is quite strong, the Bergamot oil was originally blended with black tea to mask the lack of flavour from black tea. The Bergamot orange is mostly cultivated in Italy and the Earl Grey tea is now a favorite in Britain and in North America.


Earl Grey tea looks no different from the Ceylon tea (the typical yellowish brown). The first taste after a sip is no different too, however, the moment just before you swallow, u got the special taste. It is neither simply sweet nor sour, but the distinctive aroma is the most pleasant taste in the end. Flicking through the directories in my mind, I just manage to say that it has a little bit the taste of Taiwan ‘roast milk tea’ (烤奶茶), just at the very end before you swallow… The taste is pleasant, not with strong aroma. It moistens the throat and so as the esophagus… and seducing you to want more of it...

This glass of Earl Grey has not added lemon… (I wonder whether the principle of adding lemon to Earl Grey and adding lemon to ‘teh o’ will be the same or not) May be next time I’ll try to find a shop selling Earl Grey with lemon… Perhaps anyone of you has ever tried one with added lemon? Mind telling me the taste? For those who never try Earl Grey before, do not hesitate to try one, you will never regret over it…

夜

夜晚，总是我脑海活跃的时候。灵感也总是在夜晚浮现。回忆更不用说了~

夜晚，总是写日记的好时刻，因为，人特别感性~

雨夜，气氛更佳，总是我的最爱~

夜晚，周围的声音总是比平时大声，对我这种容易失眠的人，最会造成困扰~

于是，我养成了失眠就听歌的习惯。

收音机和手机是我准备入眠不可少的。有时，我会播放CHEMISTRY 的唱片，那是最适合不过的。懒惰时，就听手机随身听，有时听988，但较多时候是听收录在手机里的歌，有得选择嘛。

可是，听着听着，听到某些歌曲，会心一笑；某些歌曲，又会把我带到回忆里，像幻灯片般翻阅过去的点点滴滴。有时觉得听歌的心情，就像读回自己写过的日记，总是有复杂的滋味。奇怪的是，听歌总是成功拯救我失眠的夜晚；总比看天花板来得有效。

从此，听歌也就成了我夜晚失眠的良伴……

Pride and Prejudice

It never came to my mind that my first post on movie would be on an English film... (as I like Japanese drama so much...) Since small, I was told that literary film will never be interesting, and horror and action movies will always be a big hit in cinemas. I believed that as I was always being scared and stunned by the actions and horrifying scenes but never try to even exposed myself to a literary film before. How silly I am... Tonight, thank to my curiosity, I watched "Pride and Prejudice" 2005 version. I know "Pride and Prejudice" is the most famous work by Jane Austen since I was in secondary school, but shamefully, I never read the book.

The story was set at the time when ranking among the English society is important. The rich cannot marry the poor and so on... (just like in many other countries that time) If the daughter in a family able to get married, it would be of great rejoice by the family or even the whole neighborhood, because the family will have less burden afterward. If a man is willing to marry a girl, there will be no reason or excuse for the girl to reject. However, the writer was successful to break this tradition in her story by TRUE LOVE among the gentlemen and ladies.

In the story, 'true love' saved the relationship from pride and prejudice; and pride and prejudice were the first impressions of the gentleman "Mr Darcy" by "Elizabeth". From an article I read, "First Impressions" was the initial name the writer give to this wonderful piece of work. The title "First Impressions" may suit the story very well, but in my opinion, may be the writer wanted us not to forget the bad impact that would be brought to ourselves and the people around us with just our pride and prejudice.

From this moment onwards, I swear I would never go for a horror movie when I'm boring. That will only costs me another night of insomnia. Good movie like "Pride and Prejudice" not only filled up my spare time, it also let me learn something useful in my life, at the same time, enjoying the breathtaking scenes of England in the movie. There were so many attempts of movies made based on popular literature. The most recent will be the Angels and Demons by Dan Brown. In opposite, I've read the book but not watched the movie... (It was that H1N1, make me scare for going into crowded cinema) Although I've read many comments about "Da Vinci Code" movie before, but I still believed that as long as the story of the original work is good, and in the movie, the story has not altered much, that movie will be very nice to be enjoyed. ^^

单身日记

最近流行的“剩女”新词，意味着单身女郎的普遍化，和“草食男”（不注重爱情的男人）逐渐增加的趋势。有的人执意要寻找真爱，无视岁月的摧残，都要等到属于她的爱情出现。

有时，觉得单身并不是坏事。少了一个人的烦恼和担心，多了属于自己的时间和自由。享受单身的当儿，也会羡慕霸级市场里的拖手情侣……看了就算，强调自己现在单身也活得很开心！（真是阿Q~）看到朋友们为情人一把鼻涕，一把泪，更是觉得自己更幸运了~ 哈哈 ^^ 朋友常为男朋友和两个人的未来烦恼，替男朋友的工作担心，吵架时更是心情糟透……常常按计算机计划几时可筑爱巢、买保险……一天按几十封的短讯、打上十通的电话，连吃饭都不能好好享受眼前的食物……答应好见面，却要在半小时前倒数“甜蜜”时光的来临，一边打开衣柜发呆……虽然有这样多无谓的烦恼，却还是喜孜孜的说很幸福……真是的……

虽然觉得单身好，我并没有抗拒爱情。就像蔡健雅的《达尔文》里，“保持单身 忍不住又沉沦”，到头来还是“兜着圈子来去有时苦等”……爱情来临时还是无法抵挡，仍然会打开心扉。虽然不一定成功，却不可剥削属于自己恋爱的权利。

爱情或许是一种盲目，也是一种奇迹~
爱情就像一个陷阱，一旦沉醉了，就无法自拔~
爱情的羁绊虽让人失去自由，但为爱流的眼泪却是甜的~
爱并不止于喜欢，而是加了包容和迁就~
爱情也需要努力，让它维持下去~
爱一个人好难，放手却更难~

此刻让我们散播大爱，用爱的力量，滋润大家的笑靥！

讲座会

今天去听了个关于抗癌草药的讲座会 - “天仙液”。孙医师在讲解癌症病发的过程时，我听了都很明白。

当初，我一直质疑自己是否读错科，一直以为自己比较适合文科。今天，当我可以完全明白一个专业人士所表达的讯息时，才觉得读了四年的药剂都没白费。觉得自己应该珍惜那所学得的知识，来帮助身边的人，而停止埋怨药剂不适合我，更应停止彷徨和忧虑，到底哪个领域才真正适合我。走过的岁月无法挽回，自己所拥有的一技之长，才是一生的宝藏。既然我学了多年的科学，就更不应该搁在一旁。其他领域或许可当兴趣，一并学习，其间更应钻研属于我专门的知识。

科技越进步，人们却越往传统药方寻求治疗，这不是很矛盾吗？先进的医疗不足以满足人们的需求，人们反而寻究根本，从最基本的饮食开始改善身体新陈代谢。近期越来越多专业人士作了草药方面的研究，证明比一般西药来得安全，效果更好。大家在使用传统药方之前，请别盲目接受，请咨询专业人士的劝告。别忘了，在市场上有很多假药哦！

DREAM - "The Last Holidays" 夢 - 「最後の長い休み」

Dream, could be mean ambitious too, but most of the time, it associated with something unrealistic... (even in Japanese, the same word is use for 2 meanings of 'dream' as in English, written as '夢' 'yume')

Dream could be different at each stages of life... Do you still remember the very first dream you ever had? Become a cop? teacher? doctor? lawyer? musician? How far are you now from your dream? Very far? Near? Almost reached?

As the university life ended, here comes the longest holiday we ever had... As we are standing at this life junction again, the holidays provide us plenty of time to think all over, how do we want to carry on our life... Working? Further study? or... PURSUE OUR DREAM?

Somebody may be on their right track already to reach their last destination of dream, somebody may be getting further and further away of it... Which path to choose will depend on which principle u hold on...

At this life junction too, we face the separation of friends... Surely, we could have said "We'll meet again someday", would we have been able to believe that? Saying "goodbye" will result in another meet? Or just a way that we could be forgotten more easily?

Anyway, there is a lot to be think about at this stage... Instead of crying over the parting and lost of dreams, at least we could do now is "TREASURE" everything that we've gone through so far...

P.S. 大塚愛 - フレンズ (Ootsuka Ai - FRIENDS) is a meaningful song describing about separation of friends while pursuing their dreams... This song has been used as the theme song for the Japanese drama "Tokyo Friends" 「東京フレンズ」. The famous quote "一番最初に　描いた夢を　あなたは　今も　憶えてる？" (The very first dream you ever had, do you still remember?) Please kindly visit the link of this song, HERE!!! Lyric and translation